Not Your High School Girlfriend

Dispatches from the corner of Hollywood and Motherhood


 By Mia Sara


Unsure of my body,
or the shape of my culture,

I can attest to the legacy
of the wooden spoon,

and a feeling for salt
as a cure-all

for the high hopes
we all have to swallow.

Good taste is
always the last resort

for a refugee, like me.
My last best hope,

is as much a lie
as the first one.

I choose, therefore I am.
I am, not what I choose.

The possibilities
may not be endless,

but we can try to love
in an endless way. 

I’m no hero. This story
is unfinished devotions,

and dinners. Some kids,
they eat the empties

you hide from them, so
your pantry is bare

but full of cans. Feed
your proper ghosts,

feed the always wilderness
of acceptance, again and

again, take up the burden
that belongs to no one.

Mia Sara used to be an actress, but recovered her senses and now she writes. Her work has been published in Superstition Review, Helix, poemmemoirstory, The Summerset Review, PANK, the Write Room, among many others. Her chapbook, Mid-Life With Gorilla was published by Dusie Press, and she had a long running column “Wrought and Found” for PANK Magazine. She lives between New York City and Los Angeles with her husband, Brian Henson, and her children. Read more from Mia at her website.